updated at 10:35 AM on January 25, 2004
Why does the lord test his servemts? If God know's everything why must he test us... doesnt he know what the outcome would be anyways?
I was having a nice day yesterday hanging out with holly and my other friends when i had to take my holly home... Im on the bus having a great old time when my cell phone rang. It was my mom and the phone conversation was short. All she wanted to tell me was someone very dear to me had a 95% chance of dieing that night. I tried to remain strong around holly but after about 10 min. my emotions broke out and i started to cry.
holly was sitting next to me trying to confort me saying it was ok over and over... I wanted to tell her to stop because it was making it worse for me...
The thing i didnt tell u about this person who probably died last night (still havent had word) was that she was the one who mainly helped me move on when my grandmother passed on. she conforted me as the same way holly did the night my grandmother died. She was a big infulence on my life and the sweetest person u would ever know...
I'll Miss You very much Carol
Bryan
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